So Real

He broke up with me.
Ofcourse he did.
I was stupid not to see it coming.
Who would want to be with me?
I'm a mess.
A project.
Something that takes time and effort.
Who would want to invest in me?
Nobody.
That's becoming quite clear.

I'm falling apart over something that didn't even last a week.

I liked him so much that this actually hurts.
Pain in my chest and stomach. I'm shaking. I feel so empty.
I haven't felt so wrecked over a boy since Adam and that didn't even hurt this much.
Why?

It's almost like I have nothing.

A best friend that I can't apologise to. Meaning she's not my best friend.
Another best friend who has replaced me.
I seem to have completely fallen for a guy that doesn't want me.

I have Riley. But right now he may aswell be a million miles away.

I have nothing and I need something so bad.