So Real

Birthday tomorrow.
18
Fuck that.

I don't even know.


I've pushed my best friend away so much that she may aswell be on the other side of the universe.
Someone needs to say sorry.
I can't make myself say it.
Hah, some adult I'm going to make.

Fallen for the completely wrong guy.
He doesn't like me he's just stringing me along.
It's so obvious and yet I can't stop the way I feel about him.
The way he makes me feel.
The way it feels when we're together.
He let me have sex with my socks on because I was cold.

I wish I could just suck it up and take the pills.