So Real

I don't know.

I'm happy, happiest that I've been in so long but I just feel like crying.

All these guys are attracted to me, I can tell they are and I'm just over it.
Freddy reckons he's done telling me how much he loves me and whatever but I'm sure it'll start again in a few weeks, it always does.
Justin is back to telling me he loves me, and doesn't seem to understand that he barely knows me and therefore cannot love me and that I have a boyfriend so he shouldn't be telling me that.
Ethan has backed off completely but added Rob on Facebook.

Rob is great, he really is. He says cute things and when we're alone he puts his arm around me and also does that when other people are around sometimes.
I wish he was less shy with me around other people.
He wants our first kiss to be perfect, special. And that's cute and sweet and whatever but when will that be?
It seems like he's never kissed anyone before, I was going to ask him before but then he wasn't online. I need to ask because then I can figure out a way to go about it.

I love it when Lauren's not home, it's great, I love that I can just do whatever but at the same time I'm lonely.

I don't know.