So Real

hmm well i cant be bothered doing a whole heap of updates so i'll start with yesterday.

woke up and played with my kitten for a bit, i was fair bored. then i had a shower and got ready then went over sammies. then after a bit we walked to sugarland and we went into Big W and tried on plastic shoes lol. then we walked around and sat in like little kid car seats =] and then we just walked around for a bit
then i had to go home and get ready for tap so i did that then went to tap and it was alright, pretty hot though and we started our concert dance.
after that i went home and my parents were going to an engagement party that night so i went over to rileys.
when i got there i got a text from freddy that said i put my friends before him and he thought we should break up and i kept texting him telling him no but he just wouldnt listen so i stood up with my arms out and riley goes what? and i said hug me and he did =] and like 2 minutes later we were still hugging and he goes i can hear your heartbeat and i was like yea that happens. then we watched the dvds from the last two concerts and pointed out who was out of time and who didnt point their toes and such it was fun. then before i left he gave me another long hug, hes so sweet, heaps glad hes my friend.
then i came home and i was like jdkshg =[ and thats when i posted that last post. and the whole night i was making myself sick but since there was no food in my stomach i was throwing up stomach acid.

this morning i woke up feeling sick and depressed and i made a decision i wasnt gonna stop texting freddy until he gave me a good reason as to why we should break up eventually he did text back saying he still loved me and i was like grr you fuckhead if you still love me why would you break up with me?? and he went on to say he needed space and time to get thoughts of me and other guys out of his head [he reckons im gonna cheat on him] and im just like and breaking up with me will get those thoughts of your head how? we might be getting back together, we're meeting up tomorrow to talk about everything.
then i had dancing and since i had no energy mom was like hmm try some redbull so i did and it basically drained me of all my energy and i was like argh why!? then about halfway through dance practice i just collapsed. when i finally came to moms like cmon get outta the way and im like umm what happened?? then i came home and emmy came over coz she was out practising driving and we played with my kitten lol.
and now here i am. im gonna put a heap of pictures at the end of this post. so enjoy. xxo.
oh and nia part of my hair is currently a blueish purpleish color. because on friday maddie color it in partly with nikko pen =]

[[i hope someday you have it all.]]



i got that elephant for valentines from riley =]

my bag, i colored in the pink bits and put crosses on its eyes

Roxsas

me and my gloomy bear

me and Roxsas

me and freddy at bagara

hair =]

me and channi

me and amy

sammie in BigW