So Real

sorry i havent posted since wednesday but theres good reason for that honest!

so wednesday night i was bored so i invited emmac to stay over again and she said she'd be over once she finished work, so i watched tv and such until she got to my house then we watched a dvd called CNNNN no its not a news program...well it kinda is but its more making fun of the news =]
then we watched scrubs and went to bed around midnight [=
the next morning we eventually woke up and emma remembered she had to work so we used the washing machine, haha it took a couple minutes to figure out then we figured out how to work the dryer. we're geniuses =D
then mom came home with lunch and emma got ready for work.
then mom dropped her home and dropped me over at sammies =]
when i got to sammies i talked to her mom and her for a bit then we went to get dvds and sara [sammies mom] said we had to be back quickly otherwise she'd miss days of our lives. so we got out some movies that were supposed to be horror but ofcourse they werent.
then we went latenight and just wandered around for a bit then sammie,leigh and john walked way out infront of me and freddy and then i just had this overwhelming feeling of claustrophobia and panic and i tryed to pull away from freddy so i could get outside and this is what happened,
Freddy: whats wrong??
Me: i need air
Freddy: are you ok??
Me: probably not
Freddy: babe where are you going??
Me: i really need air *tears starting form and finally breaks away from freddy*
Freddy: do you want me to come with you??
then i just ran towards the travelator and walked down it until i got near the bottom and there were people in front of me and when i looked upwards i could see freddy and john watching me then i got off the travelator walked around a corner and sat in the carpark by myself crying. gosh i felt like such a loser. i mean seriously who gets claustrophobic in open spaces??
then after a couple of minutes i saw some shoes walk past and heard someone sitdown next to me and freddy started trying to calm me down. damn him for being so caring coz that just made me cry more because i feel like i dont really deserve a guy who cares about me so much hes willing to ditch his friends to make sure im ok.
i had a feeling he wanted to go back upstairs to see his mates and i told him he could go if he wanted but he didnt.
then i just stopped breathing and i panicked, stood up then fell back against the wall coz id lost the strength in my legs then i looked beside me and freddy was just staring at me and im like "can we go out in an actual open space" and he said yea sure and we started walking but it mustve looked like i was gonna faint coz then he just picked me up and carried me. when he first picked me up i was like oh wtf! am i floating? then i realised he picked me up and i was shocked he could actually lift me.
then we sat on the edge of a garden for a bit then sammie texted me to say our ride was there so i went upstairs found sammie and we got a lift back to her place.
then we watched what was meant to be a scary vampire movie but it ended up super boring and i fell asleep lol. haha mind you we were both sharing a single bed head to foot. haha extremely squashy i woke up a few times with her feet in my face so i'd cover them up with a blanket and continue to sleep =]
the next morning when we eventually both woke up we got ready and started watching American Psycho, meant to be a horror but ended up more funny than anything so we ended up walking to hinkler, had lunch [[i saw my "badboy" exboyfriend shopping with his mom hehe]] then we went to the bus stop and caught a bus to sugarland then we wandered around there for ages then her mom picked us up and we went back to sammies and went on the net.
then leighleigh invited us over to his house coz a few people were coming round so we got sammies mom to drop us off and went and watched leigh on the computer and just talked then freddy and john turned up.
after a little bit freddy got pissed off coz of the way i was apparently looking at leigh so he went outside, and i went outside after him to make sure he was ok which he was. then eventually he went back inside and just left me there by myself so after a bit i went back into the computer room and sammie was on the computer and leigh was on the couch so i sat on the couch and put my legs over leighs legs to get comfy then freddy mustve seen us and stormed off coz leigh goes to me "freddy just gave us dirty looks and stormed outside" and i was like hmm ok. then sammie went to talk to john and leigh got up to get on the computer and gave the phone to me and i got to talk to kahlyssa and keep her awake, we're gangsta yo =] then i got bored so i went outside to make sure freddy was ok AGAIN and it turns out he always loses his girlfriends to leigh and i was like ok that sucks. whatever im starting to get sick of his insecurities.
then me and sammie went back to her place, myspaced and msned for a bit then went to sleep. this time not on a single bed but a couch that if you fold it out makes like a double bed haha finally enough room for two =]
a couple of times i woke up and she was like right against the wall and i was right behind her so id move over and i think i elbowed her lol.
then sammies mom woke us up at about 8 coz sammie had work at 9 and mom was picking me up at 9.30
so sammie got ready then i got ready and watched some tv show called go stop go or something like that it was pretty boring.
then mom came and picked me up from sammies and we went over to katelyns to sort out the arrangements for when we go to the gold coast on thursday and to wish brent happy birthday [[hes 11]]
so whats happening on thursday is at about 7.30 am [[MY GOSH IM GONNA DIE!]] katelyn and her mom are gonna come round to out house and pick us up then we're gonna drive to the goldcoast. katelyn has little dvd players in the back of her car and i asked if i could bring the saw movies but katelyns mom said no coz she doesnt like katelyn watching horror/gore movies and i was like but but but its a mystery. but still no lol.
then mom and i came home and had lunch then i came on the computer and started writing this post but i kept getting distracted so i started just a bit after 1pm and it is now 7.07pm so this is a few hours worth of blog so appreciate it =]
haha so anyway my cousins 18th birthday party is tonight and i was gonna go but my head hurts so i cant be bothered. so just mom and dad went and bruce stayed home coz he drank a bit to much last night hehe.
so mom and dad left to go to the party then about half an hour later bruce comes out and asked what i wanted for tea, i decided on kfc =] then he goes right grab the house keys your coming with me and i was like what?? but but but ok. so we drove to kfc, it was actually quite fun. scary thing is since the start of 2008 bruce has been in a good mood, shocking i know! then we tailgated a couple people who were driving to slow hehe got some kfc then we were driving behind a learner driver and they were going like 10km under the speedlimit so we over took them with the stereo on so loud the sits were literally vibrating so much, it was like getting a back massage! haha we got a few looks lol.
then when we got home we ate then he went to watch some animated movie about farm animals and such and i came on here to finish this post =]
then at about 8.30pm when emmac finishes work shes coming over and staying the night =] we're buddiesssssssss lol

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xo LilMizMari xo: love your new name =] its cute haha yes i hate girls like that im just like AGKS:NHSKF LEAVE ME ALONE except i do that in my head.

oh god my head hurts D: and my glands are swollen and sore, i think im coming down with tonsilitus again. i'll have to complain to mom when she gets home. actually i'll complain now, hehe i just sent her a text. sympathy please.

question. do you guys want me to keep posting lyrics at the end of my blog or just every now and then??

well here are some lyrics to end the post. i'll just have to open my itunes library and pick a song...

Darling - Eyes Set To Kill

Don't lie; don’t lie to me now,
Now I'm erasing you,
Throwing those memories out,
Out to start something new,
I'm throwing those memories,
Darling don't lie to me.
Breathe in slowly now; darling don't lie to me,
Inhale truth I plead for you’re my only hope,
Don't lie, don't leave.
My minds set on failure with the road you chose
Told me you loved me told me you...
Take your time I’m only dying
Patiently i kneel here dying
Curse the blind you curse the blind
Deep inside is where it lies
What got me into this mess that devoured me?
(Darling don’t lie)
Lies and deceitful actions keep promising
(Don’t mind me I’m only dying)

[[i hope someday you have it all.]]