So Real

ok so dont expect to many blog posts from me for awhile.
why?
im stuck in hospital.
why?
coz i overdosed on a heap of medications on thursday.
wanna hear about my thursday though??

fought with mom, overdosed on painkillers, started walking to sugarland and some guy offered me a lift to wherever i was going so i was like sure why not and he drove me to freddys. by the time i got to freddys i was starting to feel the overdose kicking in but i asked him not to call/tell anyone so now my parents dont like him.
then i had to go to hospital coz i had uncontrollable twitching and i cant remember much else.
i dont remember friday, all i remember is waking up a couple times.
how am i posting now? i was allowed to come home for a couple hours and go to the studio christmas party, it was ok. and i have to go back to hospital soonish. =/
terrible food in hospital and no phones for patients
dammit.
whatve i been doing with my day?? sleeping and reading. its sooo boring! and the only visitors im allowed is family. my dad could hardly look at me at first but now he can. my brother wont come near the hospital and my mom is my frequent visitor. i mean its nice of her to come see me and all but i really wish my friends could visit but they cant.

theres a song i want yous all to hear coz i think its beautiful.
Calling You - Blue October
look it up on google and listen/watch it on youtube.

i cant be bothered answering comments at the moment.
should be back to frequent blogging hopefully by monday.

ok love you all my little blogging family
xxo

[[i hope someday you have it all.]]