So Real

i ended up going latenight with sammie. it was alright.

we went and sat outside against a wall coz we were bored of sitting inside and maddie came and sat next to me with her smokes and she was waving the smoke away from me lol. then she went inside and freddy came and sat next to me and i wasnt really happy i dunno why just wasnt, and he kept asking me whats wrong and i told him nothing then it looked like he was gonna cry and he got up and ran away. literally ran away and im just sitting there and everyone looked at me like whatd you do?? and i said i didnt do anything.
then we got up and walked around inside and freddy texted me to ask whats wrong, then me and sammie went back outside coz freddy wanted to kiss me before he left, it was gross he tasted like cigarette.
then we went back inside and walked around then sat down and talked.
then i went home and i watched heroes.

Today Friday 16.11.2007
no doctors appointments!! =] lol, i slept in and then this afternoon i was gonna take some new pics for myspace then my brother came home so i didnt. i dont take any photos when hes around coz he looks over my shoulder and tells me what to take a photo of and blah blah blah just be's annoying in general.
then tonight i had dancing and i feel so weak, it was like i didnt have the energy to do just 2 hours of dancing but i did it anyway =/
then i came home and was on myspace talking to people for a bit then i figured i should probably write up a post.
now i want to show you guys some text messages from freddy that i got not long ago. i didnt text back to him awhile ago and he sent me these.

1] i love you so much your my everything im getting a piercing to remember you forever.

2] babe i love you way to much your my babe forever i dont ever wanna lose you i would die if not from heartache from my own doing i heard that song box of sharp objects and its my new fave song i love you.

hes nice =] i feel kinda bad for not texting back but i dont think itd matter coz hes drunk and probably wont remember in the morning so i'll just text him tomorrow coz i think i might be going over his place or out somewhere with him.

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Sammy: yes my comments are trapped in a tiny box lol i figured it'd be easier for you guys to comment if you can look at the post while your commenting. well im glad you ended up commenting lol. yes i really like that ice cream picture i use it everwhere lol. yes lucky my hair isnt orange [= im gonna build the pillow fort monday coz i should have the house to myself and be able to steal everyones pilows hehehe =] and think of number 2 for my todo list...think of that later my brain hurts. okokok i'll obey the list!! thats the episode with the german =] [= lol he dances so retardedly with the balloons. you must be getting a long list of people to kill for me, i appreciate that. yes...maybe if you cut your hands off first then dye your hair blue!! and then you can get robot hands!! :O its genius!! =]

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PF Nelly: lol! i read the mrs underpants part and clicked to a different internet window then i was like that didnt say mrs underpants did it?? lol!! and yes it did. ok im gonna try subscribing to peoples blogs soon. maybe. yea i deleted off the photo of me in a washing basket dressed wierdly. yea you can get your hair chemically stripped if youve dyed it really dark or bleached it, and ive done both =] purple grass?? sounds good [=

xo LilMizMari xo: different colored grass patches everywhere?? i like your thinking. lol i once learned how to spell supercalifragilisticexpealidocious but i forgot so thats probably not right...i dont even know why i wanted to learn that word, its crazy. what lovely singing you have. =]

my answer to the grass question. id make the grass blue then when it rains or it gets wet it turns purple. thats my idea anyway =]

just got another text from freddy it says
"i love you x999935478143888546444528764228756642576443288464225876644268765432666378982234642587665452876 x2 "
thats exactly what it said, i sent him a message like that once, its probably the one i sent him with x2 added in. i pretty much love him =]

now im gonna recommend some songs for you guys, im not sure if you'll like them or not their not from mainstream bands.
box of sharp objects - the used
brackish - kittie
definately maybe - FM static
faintly whisper - dear whoever
a gorey demise - creature feature
jersey - mayday parade
let go - frou frou
situations - escape the fate
walkie talkie man - steriogram
when i get home your so dead - mayday parade
if you download/listen to any of these songs tell me what you think. their not all the same music genre so you might like some but not others.
hmm time to think of a question
what annoys you about people?? i dont want yous naming names just something that annoys you about people.

okay well im out
xxo

[[i hope someday you have it all.]]