So Real

My laptop was broken but now it's fixed.

I think I'm giving up.
Everything is either good or bad.
Never better than good.
Never worse than bad.
Never middle.

I feel almost emotionless.
I still get the occasional twinge of happiness or sadness but mostly it's just middle.
Unless I'm with Jordan or talking to a good friend but that doesn't last forever.
I can pretend happy quite realistically at work.

I like work.

I need to get out of here. This house is wrecking me, I'm finding it harder to trust people and believe good things.
I need motivation to get out of bed in the morning besides simply living.
I need a hug.
I need someone to tell me that things that have happened to me simply suck.
I need something.